To state the probably obvious, its a huge time for me right now.
Dealing with my father's death and complex & demanding family situation.
It's full of huge challenges & substantial gifts... tho doesn't always feel like that.
I'm finding my way thru. I'm trying to learn pacing, strategy, remaining grounded... & adult... without completely losing the sense of awe and gratitude I've felt in the experience of sharing my father's exit from this human world.
I'm even more actively engaged with mental health in very real and tangible ways, dealing with my families needs and my own, social services and my own practice as a healer and spiritual woman. It's all very real andc challenging, sometimes has felt tooooo much.... but i'm finding my way thru.... & finding much generosity and skillfull help is here for me.
I'm moved to be alive and able to experience all of this.
I notice that the most painful place is when i feel disconnected or unable to make the brave steps i want to make.
I notice that simple grief is painful but also healing. That simple grief..(.i.e. the ability to love & lose, uncomplicated by resentments or regrets,) is able to clear the space for future gifts.
It's scary losing yr last living parent.
It reminds us of our own mortality & calls us to be the best adult we can manage.
I'm grateful for the allies that surround me.
I'm grateful for the love & joy granted to me in my parents DNA.
Today i feel loved enough to believe i can handle the challenges which remain considerable & enduring.
with love & power,
Chrystine,
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